Carter's First Birthday

Wow. This is amazing. Two blog posts TWO days in a row. I've set a record. I don't care if this is full of grammatical errors, or my spelling is off. If I spent the time doing everything as perfect as I want it to be, I would never get anything done. So I'm just going to be my unperfect self, and do all the shit I want to do and not worry about what other people think or say about me. What other people think about me is none of my business.

Before I show you all the wonderful pictures of Carter's Birthday, I need to vent a little bit about my stress level right now. I don't know why, but I feel like I'm going to explode at times. My job is the most insanely stressful job ever. I have a ton of pressure on me. I feel like each day I'm drowning in work and by the end of the day I'm barely clinging to the surface, and then it starts over. And then over, and over and over again and I'm worried that one day I'm not going to make it to the surface and I'll drown. I have no idea what I mean by that, but I seriously can't wait for this convention at the end of the month to be done so I can focus on my insured's, writing business and doing what I love; helping my clients. I don't want to get into specifics, but I'm a commercial insurance agent. Don't let my stress post fool you, I adore my job, I just don't adore all the mess that comes with it.

I am also trying to spend more time writing my dream screenplay that I have been writing in my head for years. This is what I want to do. This is what I was meant to do, and I can't do it, if I don't do it. I can't be a writer if I don't write. Right? And plan C is winning the lottery, which I am so don't tell me I'm not going to win, because I am. K? Now ..

Carter's First Birthday Party! We had a Barnyard Themed Backyard BBQ Bash at my parent's house on Sept. 25th. I worked my butt off to make sure my little guy had a birthday to remember, and pretty much broke the bank too. We have no more savings. Nough said.

I made and designed a candy bar complete with pinwheels, cow and pig lollipops and all kinds of goodness. The kids at the party were in awe of the candy and couldn't keep their eyes off of it. Mission accomplished. We also had a petting zoo that my mom sprung for; complete with a pony and weird fuzzy chickens. That was also a huge hit. I made it through the day, but because I was such a mad-woman prepping the event, I didn't really get to spend time on my hair or makeup and ended up hating all the pictures of me so I am coincidentally missing from most of the pictures. Carter also ended up with 3,000 toys so that was also a challenge. We invited everyone we knew and then realized, that the feck are we going to do with all of these toys?

Seriously, raising the first child is like a big science experiment and I'm sure with the 2nd one we will do things almost right the first time, and then the 3rd, well, we'll be pro's by then. Poor Carter. Not really poor Carter because he is a spoiled little munchkin.

Here are some pic's from the event. Well I'm quite proud of myself for posting again, and it feels really good to put this all out there so I'm going to do my best to keep writing to you all, even though I'm pretty sure you all is no one. But, no pressure to myself so I don't psych myself out. K. Nighty Night.