Picture Thursday!

I just made-up picture Thursday, but maybe it'll be a tradition?

I got nuthin tonight. Andy and I have been taking separate cars to work (we work at the same office) so I can stay late and play catch-up every night. I no longer have to leave in the middle of some uber important work just because the clock strikes 5pm. I can stay as long as my sanity will take (which is usually an additional 30 - 60 minutes max). But the little extra time is helping me play catch-up so I'm not feeling so out of control and anxious. I'm also going to start taking some meds again (a mild anti-depressent or mood stabilizer) not sure which route to take to help me with my stress even though I am not depressed.

Ana comes tomorrow - as in Ana our cleaning lady and I couldn't be happier. Our house needs some lovin'. And tomorrow is Friday. I'm looking forward to another weekend with my little family as always. It looks like we'll be giving up Carter's nursery for 6 month's or so and we'll be letting my sister Nichole move in for a bit. She's sick of living with my parents; has the money to live on her own, but she just doesn't want to live alone. Carter doesn't use his room, like at all, so its a small sacrifice and she'll be paying us rent which we could totally use. And it'll be fun to have her around for a bit. I figure when she move's out, I'll re-decorate Carter's room which is something I've been wanting to do for a while anyway.

Now on to my "Picture Thursday!" I made spaghetti tonight and played around with my camera. I also tested out a new shirt I got for Carter as a possible Christmas card picture shirt / Thanksgiving dinner shirt. Enjoy!!

(These we're all taken tonight within the past 3 hours)

TLPA 2010

FINALLY! I am done with our TLPA Convention 2010. It was 3 months of preparation for me, and two plus days of 6am-11pm of work, but we are done and it was a success. Our "fake" Paris was a hit too. I am really looking forward to starting the new week fresh and focus on getting caught up at work.

Happy Halloween!! If I have time, I will try and do a Halloween post after the festivities, maybe tomorrow though. I'm going to squeeze in a workout, bake some pumpkin rolls, dinner with the family, and then off to Amy & Mike's for some trick or treating and Halloween fun. Looking forward to a fun Holiday!

Here are some pictures from TLPA 2010:

My Hubby and I at Cocktail Hour

Hubby, first time TLPA'er

Laura and "PARIS"

"PARIS" and I..

Our booth

Have a spooktakular day!

Carter's First Birthday

Wow. This is amazing. Two blog posts TWO days in a row. I've set a record. I don't care if this is full of grammatical errors, or my spelling is off. If I spent the time doing everything as perfect as I want it to be, I would never get anything done. So I'm just going to be my unperfect self, and do all the shit I want to do and not worry about what other people think or say about me. What other people think about me is none of my business.

Before I show you all the wonderful pictures of Carter's Birthday, I need to vent a little bit about my stress level right now. I don't know why, but I feel like I'm going to explode at times. My job is the most insanely stressful job ever. I have a ton of pressure on me. I feel like each day I'm drowning in work and by the end of the day I'm barely clinging to the surface, and then it starts over. And then over, and over and over again and I'm worried that one day I'm not going to make it to the surface and I'll drown. I have no idea what I mean by that, but I seriously can't wait for this convention at the end of the month to be done so I can focus on my insured's, writing business and doing what I love; helping my clients. I don't want to get into specifics, but I'm a commercial insurance agent. Don't let my stress post fool you, I adore my job, I just don't adore all the mess that comes with it.

I am also trying to spend more time writing my dream screenplay that I have been writing in my head for years. This is what I want to do. This is what I was meant to do, and I can't do it, if I don't do it. I can't be a writer if I don't write. Right? And plan C is winning the lottery, which I am so don't tell me I'm not going to win, because I am. K? Now ..

Carter's First Birthday Party! We had a Barnyard Themed Backyard BBQ Bash at my parent's house on Sept. 25th. I worked my butt off to make sure my little guy had a birthday to remember, and pretty much broke the bank too. We have no more savings. Nough said.

I made and designed a candy bar complete with pinwheels, cow and pig lollipops and all kinds of goodness. The kids at the party were in awe of the candy and couldn't keep their eyes off of it. Mission accomplished. We also had a petting zoo that my mom sprung for; complete with a pony and weird fuzzy chickens. That was also a huge hit. I made it through the day, but because I was such a mad-woman prepping the event, I didn't really get to spend time on my hair or makeup and ended up hating all the pictures of me so I am coincidentally missing from most of the pictures. Carter also ended up with 3,000 toys so that was also a challenge. We invited everyone we knew and then realized, that the feck are we going to do with all of these toys?

Seriously, raising the first child is like a big science experiment and I'm sure with the 2nd one we will do things almost right the first time, and then the 3rd, well, we'll be pro's by then. Poor Carter. Not really poor Carter because he is a spoiled little munchkin.

Here are some pic's from the event. Well I'm quite proud of myself for posting again, and it feels really good to put this all out there so I'm going to do my best to keep writing to you all, even though I'm pretty sure you all is no one. But, no pressure to myself so I don't psych myself out. K. Nighty Night.