I've been keeping a secret

And I really suck at secret keeping. So here goes:

I'm 6 weeks along today. I know some prefer to hold on to their news until 12 weeks, but seeing as I am very open with my previous miscarriage and TTC journey, I don't mind sharing this so early. The Facebook announcement will definitely wait.

I found out on October 3rd (at only 8 dpo) it was honestly really surprising because I had become so accoustomed to seeing negative tests that my mouth literally dropped open when a faint 2nd line appeared. I saw faint second lines that early with my pregnancy with Carter and with Rose so seeing a line gave me a good feeling. With the chemical pregnancy I had in June, I didn't see a super faint line until 11 dpo, and it never darkened. And you can be sure I've taken a million tests since then and they all have been super dark. I actually took one the other day and the test line was so dark the control line was barely visible.

I had my first beta test on October 11th at 16 dpo, it came back at 247. My 2nd beta test on October 13th came back at 751 with a doubling time of 33 hours. That definitely gave me some relief, but naturally I'm still on pins and needles and consumed with fear. My 1st ultrasound is on November 3rd, (TWO MORE WEEKS AWAY), normally he does them at 6 weeks, but I'll be out of town when he originally wanted me to do it (next week). I might try to work it in sooner. I just want to make sure this bub is in the proper place and has a heartbeat.

So until then I'll be cautious.happy.scared.excited.worried.hopeful and terrified. Sounds about right.

And while I know this is good day for me, this might the source of someone's bad day. I'm sending so much love and strength to you ladies trying to conceive out there.

Xo,