Randoms

Baby update:

-On Wednesday at 13 weeks 5 days, we had another ultrasound. Yes I've ultrasounds every two weeks since week 7, but after losing a baby in my 2nd trimester it's the least that can be done to ease my fears.

But it was more than just another ultrasound. I found out when I was 14 weeks along that our sweet baby Rose had passed - with no warning. She measured 13 weeks 5 days. I didn't plan on having an ultrasound at exactly 13 weeks 5 days this time, it just happened that way. As you can imagine, I was terrified my world would collapse around me once again, but it didn't. The baby looked great, heart beat of 150.

I've been able to find the baby's heartbeat using my doppler at home every single night as well. Sometimes twice a day. I know it's excessive, I know. Two nights ago as I pushed firmly with my doppler looking for that heart beat, I felt something push back. Not something, but the baby! The baby kicked me! I was shocked. I know what it feels like after having been pregnant before, and that's exactly what it was. I haven't felt it on my own, but I hope I do soon. I didn't start feeling kicks until 20 weeks with Carter, but my placenta was in front of Carter making kicks harder to feel early on.

We were given a 65% guess on the baby's gender! I had an elective scan scheduled for next Friday but I bumped it up to today. The company will do re-scans for free if they can't see the gender the first time so I figured why not.

I had originally planned a fun Christmas morning gender reveal. But I doubt I can wait until Christmas. Aw, oh well.

-I'm a Paper Mama favorite this week for my photo!

Carter in his festive jammies.

-I'm SO excited for Christmas. It's my favorite day of the entire year. As much as I want the day to be here, I'm always sad when it's over. I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait! Okay, that is all.

A Christmas photo from circa 1995 or 1996. I'm on the upper right.