|*Please excuse this awful picture. I didn't have energy to make myself look decent today.|
Well folks, this is it. I've made it to 39 weeks and tomorrow I go for in my repeat c-section so this will be short.
I'm a bundle of nerves right now, and it hasn't quite hit me that in 24 hours I should be in my hospital room snuggling my little girl.
It has been quite a week with two scary non-stress tests at the hospital, and I've been on edge ever since.
I'm so uncomfortable in my own skin, I don't think I could have made it any longer as I'm sure any pregnant woman would say right before delivering.
I had a moment earlier today while driving around with Carter. I actually could see myself holding Olivia and taking her home (something that has been hard for me to imagine due to my fears this entire pregnancy) and I broke down into that really ugly cry. I think I freaked Carter out a little and had to reassure him that I was only crying happy tears.
Please send prayers and positive thoughts for Olivia's safe and healthy arrival!
Hopefully I'll get a chance to update you all from the hospital.
O M G.