By now, at 13 dpo, with previous pregnancies I would have had very, very positive tests and a digital confirmation of PREGNANT. And I probably would have told the world. All before my period was due.
So on Wednesday at 11 dpo, I decided I was out. My tests were completely negative (and I've studied enough tests to know). They were as white as can be, not the faintest hint of any type of line. I tried to find any resemblance of a line, believe me.
Honestly I was REALLY surprised. Last week, I felt like I couldn't wear a bra without major pain because my boobs hurt so much. I had headaches around 3pm each day, and they were the kind of tension headache I only get when I'm pregnant. I went to bed at 8pm nightly due to pure exhaustion. This doesn't happen on any normal day. I've convinced myself that I've had symptoms before, but there was no convincing these. They were 100% real. I could have shouted it from the rooftops because I was that sure. And I was happy.
Fast forward to this week when all my symptoms disappear (which is still normal for me), but all my tests were negative. I was so confused, but then I got an amazing call from the casting director of this new show (centered around weight loss), and I pushed all my TTC thoughts aside and decided I was going for this amazing opportunity with everything I've got. It could change my entire life!! At this point, I was pretty sure that at 11 dpo, without even a hint of anything, that I was out this month.
And then later that night, I decided to test again before our Wednesday Ladies Night just to be sure. And I saw the faintest 2nd line. It was super light, but I showed it to Roxanne and she said she saw it but was skeptical. So I took another, and there was yet another super faint line. And still Roxanne was skeptical because it was so light., but she could see it. People who aren't TTC are funny. A line is a line people! When you take a gazillion tests you know the difference between nothing and a light line. AND if it is some sort of weird fluke / evap line, you don't get a super faint line on more than one test. So I went to bed with mixed emotions.
Here is a picture of those tests. Disclaimer, I took this picture on my iPhone - it's blurry and the lines were slightly more visible in person. They are hard to see, but there. You may have to tilt your head to see it.
Exciting stuff, huh? So I took another test yesterday morning and the line was still very faint, but there. I went to work and was pretty much over the show possibility and was sure I was pregnant. I went to a fabulous Mexican restaurant with the girls to celebrate Laura's Birthday.
*Note: I don't hate you Google, I actually love you and want to be super rich and successful like your creators. Are you hiring?
So that's about it. I'm leaving it all up to fate. What will be, will be. I'm happy that I have two amazing things "potentiating." Wait is that a word?
I'll keep you posted, and you keep it quiet.